1Sometimes lost things make, if not everyone, me lost.
2Last week I lost my khaki blouse in the laundry and my bottle in a supermarket. Yesterday evening I lost my sleep even though I tried to curl like a shell which is my trump card against sleeplessness. Consequently, without any reader involvement, I find myself losing today's beautiful early morning-- I don't want to open my eyes or move a musle, just wandering between sleep and nonsleep and waiting to spill into what people call the real world. These things, instead of being expensive or rare, were what I already got used to. They were in my cells, my body and the way I moved. It was me who gave them breath. You see that it's never easy for me to say farewell since they can't respond and it's even harder to find a new one to fill the blank left since I myself may not respond.
3Additionally, I lost the quantity of my birthday presents, however, I found surprises followed by surprises presented by my new friends. You can't imagine the elation when discovering a huge and appealing bear the very moment I woke up and the contentment when melting the unexpectedly delectable cake in my mouth. Every time I touched the wax drops left on the tablecloth, in my mind's eyes, I could still see the imprint of the birthday candles burning yellow as a field of sunflowers. To be honest, I have to say that I lost some of my friends in China with whom I used to watch the clouds moving, the train roaring and the railway stretching to forget about the troubles of the day, however, I find new friends who care me, wait for me and make funny faces to me. We can hold each other's hand swaying to the music and can spend a whole afternoon playing simple games together. What's more, I lost the wonderful flavour of my mama's cooking and the special smell of smoke permeated around papa's forfinger, however, I found the family romance even stronger by loving them from a distance.
4Till now, I can feel the tightness in my shoulder start to release. During my adaption to the new country, this is the life Imust lead now, learning where to go and what to say, when to hold on and when to let go. Things are lost and then found, similarly, relationships are ruined and then built. Truth is, every moment is built to last if I'm living without a past.
5Back, yet beginning. Familiar, yet new...
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At first, I found it hard for me to give a decent comment on your article with the poetic language. I used to believe that it will be very difficult for an English learner on our level to describe our tiny feelings and thoughts as well as a poet. However, you changed my mind. You’ve done a really good job here. Through your descriptions, I can grasp what you are thinking and how you are feeling. Though you pity for your loss, you are optimistic all the time and you have a deep gratitude towards life. Carry on, and you will succeed in writing some day.
ReplyDeleteYou lost things because you are not careful enough. And you thought you lost yourself because you thought you were alone here in Singapore. When you find yourself surrounded by your new friends who are very kind, you feel very happy. Every day we will lose something, yet we will gain something new. I think it is what you want to express in your article. That’s true. And I hope your life will be more colorful and happier.
ReplyDeleteNow I am thinking about myself. I have lost two flash-disks. But I find I get nothing. It is a terrible experience indeed.
Moved moved moved! not only moved by your good writing but also your subtle emotions.After reading the blog, I just can't help smiling, smile because of your pure emotions,smile because of your happiness,smile because the friendship we have.
ReplyDeleteWe 13 are from all around China but got together in Singapore,a foreign country! Being a little bit superstitious, it is the fate that brought us together(....),but it is fantastic,isn't it?So, I will value every second we spend together and treasure it.
And no matter what, hope to see your innocent smiling and wish you happy all the time!