Since I came to Singapore, most of the calls I made to China are to my parents. Seldom have I got in touch with my friends in China. Seeing many people talking with their friends in China through phones for hours on the corridor every night, I just cannot understand. Why do they have so much to talk about?
I accept that I am not a person who is good at social intercourse. I seldom take the initiative of saying “hello” to friends when I am on QQ, even though there are friends I want to talk to. When meeting with someone I am acquainted, usually I prefer to pass by with my head crouched rather than greeting him/her. Also making calls to friends in China seems quite embarrassed to me. I used to tell myself that they had already formed their new intercourse circles, they might already forget you and they did not care whether you give them a call regularly or not. It seems all these reasons that prevent me from calling them only indicate that I am afraid of receiving cold receptions.
However one day in April which has been nearly 4 months since I came here, I was just on the spur of the moment to make a phone call to one of my friend. I searched out my phone book which had been neglected in a corner for quite a while, found her number and dialed. I could feel my fast heartbeats and nervousness while waiting for the line to be connected. After a long time waiting I heard the familiar voice. I told her who I was and then unexpected, I heard her exciting and surprising screams. “I nearly missed your phone. It was such a strange number that I intended not to answer it. Why didn’t you give me a call earlier? We miss you so much and we sometimes joked that you had disappeared from the earth…” Hearing the familiar voice, listening to her talking about her current live and telling her how I am going on just made me feel so warm and moving.
Hanging up the phone, I realized that they are all there. They never forget me and they are waiting for me to contact them for they don’t have my phone number and address. It is me who is afraid of being estranged and it is still me who will really make myself being estranged if I don’t take initiative.
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I feel very surprised when I read your blog. Although we are in Singapore now and far far away from our hometowns and familiar friends, we can still keep in touch with them everyday through QQ, Xiaonei and other ways on Internet. Your friend told you that she felt you disappeared on the earth, which soounds so strange. Granted, I am not a socially active person, but I seldom use QQ in Eton Hall because I do not want to be disturbed all the time. You see thanks to the advanced cyber communication, we never worry about losing touch with our friends in China, which plagued those who came here decades ago. Anyway, I hope you can enhance the link with you friends and be happy all the time!
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