Monday, February 16, 2009

My Love

Valentine’s Day has passed by. Many lovers were hand in hand strolling on the road. They were both enjoying the happiness of being together. I think some of us who come from China may have a girlfriend of boyfriend in China. We can not get together to celebrate our own festival.

Actually I had had a girlfriend before I came to Singapore. I asked her many times if we could still be together since I had to go to Singapore. The response was no. I have imagined that she probably say that. I have no right to blame her, for it is really long time I can not accompany her when she needs help or comfort. The most important thing to lovers is that one can be with the other whenever he or she needs help. But it is impossible for me to do that. I have to say it’s really a pity that I can’t be her boyfriend.

Now we also keep connect with each other. I know that it is difficult to forget each other completely at least to me, because we have given each other the happy memory in the past. Many people have persuaded me that we could not have result. I have to stay in Singapore for 6 years. Nobody knows what will happen during this period of time. Distance and time may decrease our love. I clearly know that it is possible to be that. But we can’t control our emotion especially when you fall in love with a person deeply.

I am a student of science. But I am sometimes be controlled by my emotion. I don’t know if it is an advantage or disadvantage. But one thing can be sure that I am not a person without emotion. Now I have to accept the reality that we can not get together. I hope from the bottom of my heart that she can find a boy who can give her blessedness. God bless her.

6 comments:

  1. I understand your feeling. Seperating can be extremely bitter and heartbreaking. Maybe it is better to let it go a bit. I would like to say you are brave and considerate to bless your ex. It represents your deep love for her. Mostly, boy refuse to talk about their emotions, but it's good to speak out. You are welcome to talk about your problems with me, since I also used to suffer a lot. Believe that there is someone in the near future waiting for you.

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  2. Yufeng,I can share your feeling as I had a similar experience when I stepped into Senior Middle School.At first,my girlfriend and I spent more than one hour per day on teleohone call in dinner time just before the evening study time.We were enjoying instant food taken by our friends because we could not bear to waste the limited time when we could be together even though it was not face-to-face communication.Nevertheless,the longer time we were isolated from each other,the less opinons we shared.Finally our love faded and then ended in scilence.I considered it the consequence of distance.I did not change my tune until I encountered XueYuan, one of my best friends,who is now still in love with his girlfriend in PRC and sets aside approximately two hours to to call her every day.So now what I believe is that one couple could hold their love however distant they are as long as they are persistant and brave enough to overcome the difficulties hand in hand.Though I appreciate that you understand her,I could hardly approve of your letting your pretty love to go with wind.Do you remember the song DECADE by ChenYixun?Wish you and her good luck!

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  3. What you said about your love made me sad, because it reminds me of my love. Before I came here, I asked my boyfriend and he also asked me, what’s our future. Neither he nor I dared to say that I would love you in that 10 years. So we were separated in this way. My heart broke into pieces at that time. But, as we all know, distance is a big threat to love. Even though there is a famous poem said, “If the two love each other permanently, staying together or not would not matter”, it is only a poem. In real world, human beings are all in need of help and comfort from the lover. So I think it is better to be rational. I know it is hard and painful, as I have experienced, but I think we are right. As a song says, maybe time is a kind of antidote. Let God bless them and us.

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  4. When I first saw you, I think you must be an out-going “child”. However , your blog really impressed me. Sometimes, love isn’t a thing related to two, just to one. Who won’t believe that “us” can be together forever when two are in love? But distance, seperate lovers, and love, fade away. Maybe relationgship is just not as strong as we want. I think you should not worry about you two, time is the best medicine. We are adults, right? There’re so many unwilling things. I think you’ll be fine, in the near future. Good luck.

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  5. I do not know what to say...... This is a tragedy......I do not know how to comfot you. Sometimes it is just like this. Things in the past have passed. Memory never fades, but please stick to your current life. We should not be overwhelmed by he past......

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  6. Always remember that things happen for a reason and there is always wisdom behind each experience that you have. Perhaps, she will find a boyfriend and you will meet with another girl. The main thing is to move on and share the happiness with the people around you.

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